i am an Architect of Home.
i stand strong for mental health. MINDFUL MOVEMENTS.
i am a feelings first, yoga (student) and teacher.
i am creative expression IN MOTION.
I am ignited by people and their INHERENT presence.
I am a Human Narrative Photographer, compelled by the discovery of personal story.
I take inspired action from the seat of my HEART.
i am a complete goofball.
& through all of this,
i am still discovering all of the pieces of me.
i have learned,
Home is not a location
it is a trusted sense of self
It's wild and free and ever changing.
I am honest.
I didn't always honour and love all of my pieces.
At moments I hid from my story.
At times i felt I was "too much" and "not enough"
tightly pinched into one DISCONNECTED body.
& I broke. i learned to Shine light on the darkness to love the foundations of my own home.
My Roadtrip Home | Vancouver has been my roadtrip back home to myself.
Moving into it's MOUNTAINOUS landscape HAS BEEN powerfully life shifting, challenging me to explore the vastness and strength of my own.
i grew up in the comforts of a small town. Comfortably unaware of the roadblocks I had placed in my own way and the headspace my crafted stories were taking up.
without realizing, i was playing small & it was in that small space that i learned how to retreat from my own body, CREATING A NEGATIVE RELATIONSHIP TO THE CONTAINER that MY HEART BEAT IN.
this was the first time i left home.
the second happened 4 years ago.
I had a pull. a feeling so strong i moved my half-awake life solo to vancouver. i left all things familiar, built and learned.
i spent the next few years breaking myself open and stripping down my walls. I became honest with myself, RECOGNIZing i had let my light grow so dim, trying to strike a flame on the EXPECTATIONS of ANOTHER's match.
it was a battle that landed me in a haze of smoke, so thick i lost my spark in the process.
I DECLARED this was the last time i would leave home.
it was admist my own smokescreen, thAT i waved my white flag.
i got real.
VERTEBRAE by VERTEBRAE i reconstructed my backbone.
the wider I opened the more in touch i felt.
with days of self-forgivness and trusT i REMEMBERED RESILIENCY and what it felt like to have the freedom OF self-awarness AND a CONNECTION BACK TO MY BODY.
I let walls down to love bigGER. I played everyday for perspective. i leaned into people AND FOUND courage to lean into myself.
I met myself right where I was, as I was and I surrendered to my own expectations.
i felt it. deep in my belly. a thud in my heart and a clarity in my mind. the moment i came back home to myself.
I began to find comfort in the softness of my own skin, simply by trusting i was already enough.
iT WAS IN THE UNRAVELING I found and fell in love with myself again.
it is a REMEMBRANCE. THAT you are enough, simply because you are.
this right here, is my why.